A day of self

Today, I feel a little bit more understand of myself. This morning, when i went to buy a OJ bottle for my bf, suddenly i feft a bit annoyed of what i was doing. I thought " this is such a little thing. He can do it himself, so why he did not." I met him and handle him the bottle; then he asked me to help him copy the magazine because he doesn't know how to do it. " What?, you do not know how to copy a paper? I can't believe it". My feeling makes me wonder if i am so mean. Why am I so bothered to help my bf do something? And then I see that if my bf were unable to do the things that he asked me to help, I would be happy to do it. The problem is that i saw those things are so simple that anyone can do it, so my bf should do it himself. He should be independent. In constrast, if he can do, but he prefer to ahve me do it, i feel like he kinnda controling me. And I hates to be controlled.